Trying something new

I signed up with weight watchers today. I had to, I am so close to 200 lbs. it scares me, and my breathing is bad that my mom finally said something to me. I have to start somewhere and this is my starting point, I'm scared that it will never stop I won't be able to undo what I've already done to my body..errr. so here we go... Ya can guess which one I am(not the one in pink or white)

Today was just another normal day, but then, something with little monetary value was broken. It had so much sentimental value. It was the one thing, the only person I've really been in love with, gave me without a reason or cause. He gave it to me just because he knew I liked it. He never did that, and for this item to break kind of symbolizes my need to just get over it. I keep telling myself that I will, but something happens and here I am again... sad.